tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-71143119994301489862024-03-12T19:22:16.117-07:00love in other placeswelcome to my heart. for the past few years i declared war on unhappiness and embarked on a journey to recover my joy. i want to share what i have learned and what i am still learning because i am feeling my joy again. i want all humans to find their own happiness. i am compelled to write these blogs as my living testimony. to love. to paradise, to God, to love of my self and my fellow human beings. it's gonna get random. cuz love & life are in other places ... all places.caSHmereLoveJohnsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02695251852780451801noreply@blogger.comBlogger103125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7114311999430148986.post-60571869083359199712008-09-18T13:03:00.000-07:002008-09-17T18:38:32.200-07:00the blog has moved ...to the eastside ... wordpress ... i can't deal with blogger no more ... see me at: <a href="http://loveinotherplaces.com">LOVEinOTHERplaces.com</a> .... yeahcaSHmereLoveJohnsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02695251852780451801noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7114311999430148986.post-31569111956886983042008-09-18T08:00:00.000-07:002008-09-17T13:16:55.025-07:00operation save my life -- phase 4: CHATTAHOOCHIE BRIDGEI have arrived. I’m here. But my arrival at this destination is the beginning of another journey. Cuz there is no destination … there’s only more arriving and leaving … driving people to the train … and picking em up from the airport. Maybe I’ll call it operation … LIVE … nah no more titles for the chapters of my life … for now. <br /><br />There is a bridge in Atlanta that you might miss if you’re speeding towards 285 because it’s not much of a bridge … can’t ever see the entrance and there are no cars on it … it’s a mythical place … named chattahoochie. I just like that name. it reminds me of magic and silliness and spirit. It reminds me of hoochie words that I like to use. It’s so southern, so far from Brooklyn … it reminds me how far I’ve come. And what I’ve come for. How I got to be here and the hoochie-ness of my soul.<br /><br />i am here cuz I know I been driving a lot. I love to drive and see things that God made. Like that chattahoochie bridge. Or trees that my ex-mother-in-law calls boogar bears. Or clouds in the sky. I like to know I’m part of something larger as I’m headed out into the small-minded world. I never had that in Brooklyn. In NY you mostly transport yourself underground on the nasty train.<br /><br />I know I’ve arrived cuz I got this new job where I stand on my feet and I never sit behind a desk. they started training me yesterday and i love it!!! My dreams are all coming true … in that weird way that God works … I had faith I could do this … and because it’s his will I am doing it. I’ma do it so good … I’ma have fat tips … pray for me, please.<br /><br />I BELIEVED that if I arrived in Atlanta and I put my artistic work schedule in place that the script I was working on would finish itself. And what do you know … CHATTAHOOCHIE … it is unfolding in front of my very eyes. I do the hard part okay … I sit in front of the computer for a specific time for at least 5 days a week. And the magic comes … ideas strike me in the brain, my fingers push out words and dialogue I didn’t know was there. I am so thankful … this is a 4-year-prayer answered … here … and I know the destination is the journey. I am learning to divorce my labor from its fruits. The joy is in the process. In each day I create something new. Each day it’s not finished but it is its own finished creation. I have a long way to go but I’m trying not to focus on that. I know that my script will be more beautiful the more I love it everyday. And I’m not concerned with the end but with my daily tasks. Besides it’s god’s fruit … totally. I can only wonder that I’m his servant who he chose to write this.<br /><br />I am watching my daughter unfold. I am focusing on each day we have … we no longer see each other EVERY day so I know I’m here … at this new place … and it’s hard but it’s for a good purpose and she needs to be with her other parents and family who love her in unique ways … so I’ve distilled time down to her essence …and I drink her in sips … and my daughter … I feel her flavors as they are growing and changing … and tickling me. My spirit is more at peace, I’m happier and she feels that too … in this new place … we are a little brand new. And falling in love with each other again every day.<br /><br />I couldn’t be here driving and looking at the world from the highway if God hadn’t blessed me with a car … it’s all his money I play with anyway … he brings it and he taketh it away … he gave me the skills and body to work so I can always make more change … he blessed me with work ethic and drive … I don’t know jackshit about cars really except how they drive and if I like the way they feel so I prayed and I asked God to make possible what was good, right, and best for me …he led me to a dealer, and a car I liked arrived … so I love my car and I named her dimples.<br /><br />all this to say that operation save my life is over and the living is still going on … I met all of my goals and MORE … than I ever imagined …my spirit is finally at ease … that godforsaken job is behind me, nyc is behind me … my art is percolating and the journey is fulfilling ery ery day. Here … looking at chattahoochie bridge.<br /><br />fact check: chattahoochie is really spelled chattahoochee and it's also a river that runs through georgia, alabama, tennessee, and florida ... i think :)<br /><br /><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SNFjN3sx-HI/AAAAAAAAAHU/_S2HaR29vXc/s1600-h/chatta.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SNFjN3sx-HI/AAAAAAAAAHU/_S2HaR29vXc/s400/chatta.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5247084130804562034" /></a>caSHmereLoveJohnsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02695251852780451801noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7114311999430148986.post-73308541352620673532008-09-17T09:00:00.000-07:002008-09-17T13:14:43.624-07:00predator versus alien 17: oprah v. sarah1. Tuesday morning several newscasts reported that the Republican women in Florida are organizing an Oprah Winfrey boycott for declining the decision to have Sarah Palin on her show as a guest. (more evidence to support an <a href="http://1afrika.blogspot.com/2008/06/oprah-feeling-some-blacklash.html">earlier blog i wrote about oprah-obama blacklash</a>)<br /><br />2. <a href="http://www.chopra.com/">deepak chopra</a> writes about sarah palin: She is the reverse of Barack Obama, in essence his shadow, deriding his idealism and turning negativity into a cause for pride. In psychological terms the shadow is that part of the psyche that hides out of sight, countering our aspirations, virtue, and vision with qualities we are ashamed to face: anger, fear, revenge, violence, selfishness, and suspicion of "the other." For millions of Americans, Obama triggers those feelings, but they don't want to express them. He is calling for us to reach for our higher selves, and frankly, that stirs up hidden reactions of an unsavory kind.<br /><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SM_DNkYcabI/AAAAAAAAAHM/YUe9Nxke3Ng/s1600-h/Sarah-Palin-Vogue.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SM_DNkYcabI/AAAAAAAAAHM/YUe9Nxke3Ng/s200/Sarah-Palin-Vogue.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5246626728781834674" /></a>caSHmereLoveJohnsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02695251852780451801noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7114311999430148986.post-76049347387775368292008-09-16T04:19:00.000-07:002008-09-16T04:19:00.594-07:00leavin brothers<a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SM6PHo1Pn_I/AAAAAAAAAHE/Ra8f5hNK63U/s1600-h/merry.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SM6PHo1Pn_I/AAAAAAAAAHE/Ra8f5hNK63U/s200/merry.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5246287977315803122" /></a><br /><br />sooooo who's disturbed that lehman and merrill lynch went under? lehman brothers was a 158 year old bank ... i kinda feel like entrenched power just took a major hit ... in 158 years what have any of the members of the lehman fam done to obliterate poverty? just asking ...<br /><br />i am disturbed by this 'crisis' mainly because no real poor people are paying attention (i live around lots of poor folks and aint nobody talkin bout this trust me) ... i am disturbed that banks can get bailed out by the fed and no one notices or bats an eyelash ... i am disturbed that no fed agency is going to bail out the average homeowner and yet the WORLD's largest insurance company, AIG, is asking the fed for 'emergency funding' ... you know that funding is in the several billions don't you? <br /><br />i am disturbed by the american people ... who are not connecting the dots ... not connecting g.w. bush to lenient financial regulation which caused this crisis ... not connecting federal bailouts to their income taxes ... not connecting the price of gas in lebanon to the price of coca cola in brasil and then connecting all of that to the diminishing quality of their 3rd grader's american education ...<br /><br />hey ... maybe it's not connected ... but isn't it at least worth googling?? just a question ... cuz i loves you and i cares bout yall. and i'd hate to see the chaos in wall street personally connect with your wallet.<br /><br />lastly, i am - as usual - disturbed by capitalism. it's an illusion. and this 'crisis' is what happens when fake money meets real people. do your research ...<br /><br />you can read an <a href="http://apnews.myway.com/article/20080915/D9378DI00.html">assoc. press article</a> on this matter as well.caSHmereLoveJohnsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02695251852780451801noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7114311999430148986.post-74773950287652941022008-09-15T09:02:00.000-07:002008-09-15T09:16:51.790-07:00irreversiblei say this with love in my heart - seriously - when i wonder out loud how white people view this zimbabwe issue. most white people i talk to about it immediately get morally righteous ... and they turn their noses down at mugabe and call him a monster ... he might indeed be a monster ... but as far as the land goes ... it didn't really belong to the white people ... not only that white people didn't turn their noses down when their ancestors stole it from afrikans and then passed it on to them ... uh my point is not about tit for tat. i am also not defending mugabe. i think mugabe did it for self-serving purposes and not for the common good of zimbabwe's people ... however, do i feel that white people have any moral ground to stand on when they act disappointed that their land got RE-stolen from them ... nah not one inch. sorry white folks. i guess your land can get stoled too. and here i am learning to love you despite the fact that you stole it from us. thereby teaching us how to steal it ... ah i won't continue. i just forgive white people for stealing and i forgive mugabe for stealing it back. and i pray a serious, afrikan leader gets raised up from the dust of zimbabwe who has also forgiven white people and mugabe. cuz if he aint then there will be more chaos and strife and death and decay ... but unlike court orders hate is not irreversible. hearts change ... we can transcend the hate and learn to love. all of us.<br /><br /><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SM6IyFcp9gI/AAAAAAAAAG8/tTYLz4U4gN0/s1600-h/afrikan+leaders.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SM6IyFcp9gI/AAAAAAAAAG8/tTYLz4U4gN0/s320/afrikan+leaders.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5246281009970411010" /></a><em>African leaders from right, South African President, Thabo Mbeki, Jakaya Kikwete, From Tanzania, Morgan Tsvangirai, new Prime Minster of Zimbabwe, King Mswati of Swaziland, Robert Mugabe, Zimbabwean President and Arthur Mutambara, new deputy prime minster of Zimbabwe at the signing of the power sharing deal ceremony in Harare Monday, Sept, 15, 2008. The signers pledged to make the deal work even as violence among rival supporters outside demonstrated the continuing bitterness and monumental challenges ahead. <strong>The deal describes the seizure of the farms as irreversible and say Britain should compensate those whose land was taken.</strong> (AP Photo/Tsvangirayi Mukwazhi)</em> You can read the entire article <a href="http://apnews.myway.com//article/20080915/D9378FD00.html">here</a>.caSHmereLoveJohnsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02695251852780451801noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7114311999430148986.post-58909468629468231862008-09-14T09:30:00.000-07:002008-09-15T09:19:17.068-07:00sunday in savannah by nina simonei think one of the only things that sets this blog apart is that i'm not afraid to make a fool of myself. to expose my weaknesses. to be self-deprecating and honest with my flaws.<br /><br />the only thing that makes this journey real is that it's not linear. i have setbacks. i fall back ... i relapse. this aint just about the cigarettes.<br /><br />a recent turn of events illuminated how much further i have to go in loving myself. not just the cigarettes! ;) umm in these moments when my faith and hope feel a little thin and fragile ... i pray and i meditate. i try to regulate my breathing, focus on my breathing ... for many reasons other than calming it distracts the mind and then it clears the mind ... <br /><br />anyway what i definitely love about myself is that i am always seeking to love myself. i won't give up. i'm relentless in trying to express my faith in God in that way. i am relentless in my belief that God will always help me.<br /><br />so even on days like these ... my most humble prayers for peace and acceptance are answered. and i'm thankful.caSHmereLoveJohnsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02695251852780451801noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7114311999430148986.post-15987234557591723452008-09-13T16:53:00.001-07:002008-09-13T16:55:31.922-07:00reniggini think writing a blog about it jinxed me. sigh. i'm bout to go get some cigarettes. well, i do love myself but i also love cigarettes ... the best part of loving myself, i have found, is forgiving myself and accepting me for who i am. i am a person with an addiction ... i am a person who sometimes fails at quitting cigarettes ... i'll just try again another day ... or week ... at least i don't have all that guilt, judgement, and victimization to deal with ... i just love me no matter what.caSHmereLoveJohnsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02695251852780451801noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7114311999430148986.post-32934358590785579042008-09-12T06:42:00.000-07:002008-09-12T06:57:52.832-07:00day 6<a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SMpz3K5koXI/AAAAAAAAAG0/TQv7uUPzP4g/s1600-h/ports.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SMpz3K5koXI/AAAAAAAAAG0/TQv7uUPzP4g/s200/ports.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5245132107682193778" /></a><br />yes. i gave up my cadillacs. i don't like to talk about it too much. cuz then i think about it. and then i want one and miss em ... but honestly, if i don't think about it i don't even notice. GOD is good. heck yeah i prayed! i understand that my enemy is stronger than my will. but as i was pondering my addiction and the nature of addiction in general i got to thinking that (as usual) the western world lied when they said there is one way to quit. maybe the western world didn't say that PER SE but there is a common pattern of western thinking that one size fits all ... one type of eduation, one kind of gym class, one kind of doctor ... what i mean is ... the fact that we don't tailor make clothes anymore ... the fact that we don't grow our own food ... the fact that a western yoga class doesn't take into consideration each individual's personhood ... it's all connected ... are you following me .... maybe not but this all led me to create the following list below ... i don't think this works for everyone's addictions (that was my original point) but i am sharing what worked for me ... <br /><br />what helped ME to quit smoking:<br />1. staying away from people who smoke - stay away!<br />2. crashing my car - it was a sign! i shoulda never been in that chevron parking lot buying those contraband cigarettes<br />3. not thinking about it<br />4. going to bed early<br />5. replacing the habit with wine :) joke?<br />6. not going out to bars/clubs/social environments where there are lots of people who are drinking wine (or other liquors) and smoking AT THE SAME TIME<br />7. not talking about it<br />8. having a plan B: hypnosis<br />9. loving my daughter<br />10. loving myself -- i found that i smoked cuz i was bored ... it was a way to avoid being with myself sometimes ... i found that as the love for myself grew ... i am more engaged and entertained by my self without cigarettes ... cigarettes started getting in the way and my self made me choose ... cigarettes or me ... <br />11. prayer, prayer, prayer ... HE/SHE will change your heart and strengthen your resolve ... just ask ... and see what happens <br /><br />THE END of smoking .... let's not talk about this ever again. it never happened. i never smoked.caSHmereLoveJohnsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02695251852780451801noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7114311999430148986.post-46341849682123787842008-09-11T14:00:00.001-07:002008-09-11T14:04:04.982-07:00are these real?<a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SMmHSmjThXI/AAAAAAAAAGs/0j2P6vQB-gc/s1600-h/palinSkirt.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SMmHSmjThXI/AAAAAAAAAGs/0j2P6vQB-gc/s400/palinSkirt.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5244871994705675634" /></a><br /><br /><br /><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SMmHIS_xlrI/AAAAAAAAAGk/-I4Jz9n2eaE/s1600-h/palinqueen.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SMmHIS_xlrI/AAAAAAAAAGk/-I4Jz9n2eaE/s400/palinqueen.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5244871817657685682" /></a>caSHmereLoveJohnsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02695251852780451801noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7114311999430148986.post-76183566362589227342008-09-10T08:37:00.001-07:002008-09-10T09:00:17.704-07:00the war of art<a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SMfrgG40fRI/AAAAAAAAAGc/k92DURs2kFc/s1600-h/war+of+art.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SMfrgG40fRI/AAAAAAAAAGc/k92DURs2kFc/s200/war+of+art.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5244419227933506834" /></a><br />i'm in it. to win it. it's why my blogs are short right now. i wake up and i work on other things. but this is <a href="http://www.amazon.com/War-Art-Through-Creative-Battles/dp/0446691437/ref=pd_bbs_sr_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1221061399&sr=8-1">the book (by steven pressfield)</a> that taught me about the nature of making art to earn money ... and it taught me about the psychology of procrastination ... and once i understood my procrastinating soul i was able to master it. ok ok ok i am procrastinating right now so i have not MASTERED it. but this book gave me some tools to fight it. and one of the things the book realistically captures is the fact that it's a daily fight. the urge to run off and play and chuck the manuscript never leaves us. we wake up with the same dread and anxiety ... and we fight it. every. morning. so if there's a project, goal, calling ... you have been avoiding or just haven't been able to start ... this book is also for you. it's only like 90 pages and there's love, God, and angels in it. now, i'm going to start my work.caSHmereLoveJohnsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02695251852780451801noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7114311999430148986.post-32069752903381968372008-09-09T06:48:00.000-07:002008-09-09T06:48:00.924-07:00pale in comparison<a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SMSF-nStSiI/AAAAAAAAAGU/cpu57Fsh0U0/s1600-h/pale+face.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SMSF-nStSiI/AAAAAAAAAGU/cpu57Fsh0U0/s200/pale+face.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5243463176911931938" /></a><br />when comparing minorities palin just can't hold water against obama ... there's a <a href="http://www.laprogressive.com/2008/09/05/alaskans-speak-in-a-frightened-whisper-palin-is-%e2%80%9cracist-sexist-vindictive-and-mean%e2%80%9d/">story from the LA progressive </a>that palin may have called obama 'SAMBO' ... i can't even be serious about racism anymore ... it's so old and tired ... i can only be sarcastic and facetious so all i can say is mcCain wasn't even smart enough not to get a potty-mouth VIP contender ... potty in her mouth ... yucky lady. should we revoke her minority card? sounds like that's what she wants ... she's not a minority ... she just a human republican (oxymoron?) who can get as racist as the best of em ... good to know miss sarah good to know.caSHmereLoveJohnsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02695251852780451801noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7114311999430148986.post-20072377448578448652008-09-08T05:43:00.000-07:002008-09-08T07:15:11.292-07:00now we payin fannie & freddie's bills tooin case you missed it ... us taxpayers who earn maybe $10 per hour (ok just me?) will be bailing out multi-billion dollar companies, fannie mae and freddie mac ... cuz nobody trusts their word that the loans they made to banks who used the money to lend to homebuyers will ever be re-paid ... or that's what they tell us ... is it coincidence that people who sit on the board of directors for fannie and freddie are second-cousins to g.w. bush? no. <br /><br />but you are now confronted with a choice. you can find out what's really going on ... why are fannie and freddie so tied to our ENTIRE financial system? why do two companies control almost 50% of all u.s. mortgages? yes, i personally know the answer but ... do you? and now that it effects your pocket will you burry your ass in the sand and add fannie and freddie's bills to your own ... or will you inform yourself about what's really going on? cuz let me tell you ... us taxpayers outnumber congress. we outnumber fannie mae. if we refused to stand for this ... and acted collectively ... of course, something could be done. but what will you do now? ... keep surfing the web or sieze control of your destiny. it is a hard choice. and i love you no matter what but damn ... i'd really love ChANGE.<br /><br /><a href="http://money.cnn.com/2008/09/07/news/economy/velshi_comments/index.htm?cnn=yes">from cnn</a>: Together, Fannie and Freddie own or guarantee more than half of the U.S. mortgage market - that's more than $5 trillion in loans.<br /><br />Here's how they work: Banks loan money to home buyers. The banks then sell those mortgages - assuming they meet certain credit standards - to Fannie Mae or Freddie Mac. <br /><br />But without an "explicit" guarantee from the U.S. government, the stock of both companies continued to drop, and major investors - including the central banks of Russia and China - started selling Fannie and Freddie bonds fast. That made it harder, and more expensive, for Fannie and Freddie to raise money.<br /><br />That guarantee that investors wanted is now explicit. The U.S. government is now in the business of buying and reselling mortgages, and Paulson and his cohorts hope that sends the message that Fannie and Freddie are safe. <br /><br />The bad news - taxpayers could get stuck with a $200 billion bill for the bailout.<br /><br /><a href="http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/business/7602992.stm">from bbc:</a>The federal takeover is one of the largest bail-outs in US history.<br /><br />"Fannie Mae and Freddie Mac are so large and interwoven in our financial system that a failure of either of them would create great turmoil in financial markets here and around the globe." <br /><br />from the <a href="http://www.springfieldnewssun.com/n/content/shared-gen/ap/Finance_General/Mortgage_Giants_Consumer_Impact.html">springfield sun-times</a>: "The bailout will give the mortgage industry a stability that we haven't had in a couple of years," said Rich Cosner, president of Prudential California Realty. "But frankly no, it won't help (struggling borrowers) to refinance."caSHmereLoveJohnsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02695251852780451801noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7114311999430148986.post-49478669547118700422008-09-07T07:47:00.000-07:002008-09-07T08:03:34.684-07:00stuff white people like the most ...<a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SMPs1KyqIOI/AAAAAAAAAGM/8ugSDROzfQk/s1600-h/white+book.bmp"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SMPs1KyqIOI/AAAAAAAAAGM/8ugSDROzfQk/s320/white+book.bmp" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5243294789363441890" /></a><br />is selling their product. making that money. ;) just kidding ... kinda.<br /><br />but you know that website that used to be dope -- <a href="http://stuffwhitepeoplelike.com/">stuff white people like </a>... i'm officially taking it off my blog list. cuz all the blogs have become about promoting the blog-turned-book. not that i'm mad at their shameless promoting cuz we all gotta eat. i just thought blogs about what white people liked were funnier.<br /><br />i'm thinking ... if my blog ever became a book ... i would create a different website to sell it on. new, fresh, inspired blogs are advertising in and of themselves ... here's how it works: i'ma go to your blogsite to read more good ass blogs and while there i could click on a link to find out more about the book and the book signings and the TV appearances ... as it stands ...<br /><br />stuff white people like ... is fucking up thier blog once they get a book deal.caSHmereLoveJohnsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02695251852780451801noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7114311999430148986.post-35155670098282471042008-09-06T05:00:00.000-07:002008-09-06T05:00:00.785-07:00love wisdom<a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SMFYpPb1VnI/AAAAAAAAAGE/rnmBk4RbP3k/s1600-h/beyond+fear.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SMFYpPb1VnI/AAAAAAAAAGE/rnmBk4RbP3k/s320/beyond+fear.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5242568906777122418" /></a><br />[in my journey to seek God, heal my spirit, and re-define LOVE etc. etc. there were many books that brought me to where i am today. all of the writings of <a href="http://www.miguelruiz.com/">don miguel ruiz </a>for starters: <em>the four agreements, the mastery of knowledge, the mastery of love, and beyond fear</em>. i read them in that order ... the ideas build on each other ... <br /><br />below is an excerpt from <a href="http://www.miguelruiz.com/">beyond fear</a> ... i wanted to share what i believe and where you can find more wisdom about it ... and don miguel is the first to say: don't believe him ... but also don't believe yourself! intuit, research and marinate on what you think is truth.]<br /><br /><em>The Toltec View of Love<br /><br />Jesus taught that love is the essence of silent knowledge. The Toltecs also knew that the closer we get to love, the closer we get to God. Love is the opposite of fear. Love is that fire that does not burn, that purifies everything it touches, whereas fear is the fire that burns and destroys everything it touches. It is so difficult to put the meaning of love into words. It is easier to speak of the characteristics of love. In this way, we will see that the characteristics of love and those of fear are exact opposites. We can imagine two tracks, one of love and one of fear. By comparing them, we can see which track we are on. Miguel teaches that pure love is composed of seven characteristics:<br /><br />1. Love has no expectations<br />Fear is filled with expectations.<br /><br />2. Love has no obligations.<br />Fear is full of obligations. When we act from obligation, our resistance makes us suffer. When we fail to act on our obligations, we feel guilty.<br /><br />3. Love has respect, not only for others, but also for ourself.<br />Fear respects nothing, including itself. When I feel sorry for myself, I do not respect myself. When I feel sorry for you, I do not repsect you.<br /><br />4. Love is patient.<br />Fear is impatient.<br /><br />5. Love does not pity.<br />Fear is filled with pity, especially self-pity.<br /><br />6. Love is detached.<br />Fear is filled with attachments and the dread of having to let go.<br /><br />7. Love is kind.<br />Fear is too self-involved to be kind.<br /><br /> </em>caSHmereLoveJohnsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02695251852780451801noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7114311999430148986.post-18945668987475637352008-09-05T07:31:00.001-07:002008-09-05T08:42:02.837-07:00unrequited love don't quit<a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SMFMBNftW_I/AAAAAAAAAF0/C6d7JuF3BNU/s1600-h/IMG_3299_1_2_1.JPG"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SMFMBNftW_I/AAAAAAAAAF0/C6d7JuF3BNU/s200/IMG_3299_1_2_1.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5242555024922205170" /></a><br />this picture is how i feel right now. looking off in the distance trying to have hope but failing. feeling resigned.<br /><br />a lot of yall must think that i blog about love cuz i got some man or boyfriend tucked away at home. who rubs my feet at night and listens to my whining. who helps me bring groceries in the house. who takes me on long weekend trips. who interfaces with my mommy when i dont wanna talk. who strokes my back and tells me it'll be all right. nope.<br /><br />maybe you think this young blogging girl is healthy and thick so she must have a stable of studs or a team of all-stars. one for friday. one for monday. and the dude who comes on wednesday who specializes in the backstroke. nah.<br /><br />i have no romantic relationship.<br /><br />why do i tell you this? cuz i dunno ... <strong>i found LOVE in other places.</strong><br /><br />i didn't always feel content to just be by myself. (don't get me wrong if i meet someone i really like it's on ...) <br /><br />instead, i redefined what LOVE was for me. i aint salty that i have no man .... and i aint worried (all the time). of course, i am human and moments hit when i want etc etc but i already wrote a blog about that ... see the archives.<br /><br />my point is that in the modern world ... in the majority of the world ... our idea of love is so small, so limited, so HUMAN ... i pushed myself to transcend those boundaries ... i forced myself to look at the <strong>LOVE i found in other places</strong>.<br /><br />the love of my parents. the love of my daughter. the love of my wonderful friends. the love in the trees. the love in the sky. the love in those frozen crab cakes i pan sear at home. the love of fried green tomatoes with some goat cheese. the love i have for myself. you wanna hear what i love about ME? and this is a great excercise to do with yourself at home ... whenever ... just cuz or if you are feeling unloved and unworthy ...<br /><br />what i love about myself list:<br />1. <strong>i am aware of GOD</strong> --- since i was little despite never attending church i was aware of a greater force in the world ... a spiritual entity ... that is ultimately benevolent. and when i was at my lowest i knew there was still a GOD to call upon - i just refused. see, if we believe GOD exists we will one day seek him even if we have been avoiding his kingdom all our lives. but if we don't think there is a God what will we seek? <br />2. <strong>my brain</strong> --- whether on drugs (joking ...) or frying an egg on the pavement i fucking love how my mind works. it is super slow when it comes to chemistry, mathematics, and building furniture. but it's super fast at reading people, reading books, finding the essence of information, and problem solving. it's also all the way out the box. i have yet to meet one person whose mind works like mine in that they see the things that i do.<br />3. <strong>my strength </strong>--- i aint even talking about how i was able to be a single mom, or relocate to atlanta, or do everything by myself. i am talking about confidence in my beliefs. i don't have to act on them to be strong. i don't have to shove them down the throats of others to be strong. i don't have to flex to show i'm strong. on the inside i am satisfied to simply do what i think is right. so what people say or think about me ... doesn't really control me. granted, i cared a lot more in junior high school but it was less than most of my peers. and it's always been that way. FUCK what the world thinks -- DO YOU! that's kinda how i operate. it was when i started judging myself through the eyes of others that i suffered severely. <br />4. <strong>my face and body</strong> --- i love my teeth are straight. i love my shape. i love being short. i love my toes, fingers and hands. they are pretty! i love my long haired eyebrows. i love my skin with its medium sized pores. i love my ears with their long lobes. i love my afro-chinois nose. i love my hair? not really - still working on that one. it's just too flat for me LOL. i love my stretch marks. i love my complexion? umm a lil too lite but it is what it is. i love my legs. i love my pointy chin.<br />5. <strong>my sense of humor</strong> --- whew! i love it! i can't even describe it ... and some people never get it.<br />6. <strong>my empathy </strong>--- i can feel others and i like being in tune with humans. i like being able to intuit what a person is going through. i can usually read a person so well i know if i want to trust them, if they are lying, if they are afraid, if they are jealous, and if they are insecure. this ability has saved me a lot of drama and heartache and it has also led me to wonderful experiences. i also love that i care about the world cuz it's what drives me to help make it a better place.<br />7. <strong>my artistic talent</strong> --- i love how i paint and write. we all have talents ... but they are all unique. i love my own particular brush stroke. it's intense. thick. heavy and strong. and my writing? i love how i put words together ... period.<br />8. <strong>my integrity</strong> --- i aint perfect by any means. i have broken promises ... sigh ... i have gone back on my word but for the most part ... i am what i say and i say what i am. i do the right thing most times. i don't cheat. i hate to lie except to people who hate the truth. and can't take it. i don't make excuses for myself. i always take accountability. i am usually the first to see where i was wrong. i don't play games. i don't put up facades. i don't take advantage of people - ever. <br /><br /><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SMFQZrxmCcI/AAAAAAAAAF8/OtfmDJbA53Q/s1600-h/IMG_3300_1_1_1.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SMFQZrxmCcI/AAAAAAAAAF8/OtfmDJbA53Q/s200/IMG_3300_1_1_1.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5242559843413658050" /></a><br />... that's enuff for today. i don't feel so much like the picture above anymore ... more like this pic to the right ... i feel like a little love muffin ... bursting with love cranberries ... <br /><br />muah! go make a list for yourself! hug yo ass today!<br /><br />** believe it or not i did not take these photos for this blog. already had em :)caSHmereLoveJohnsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02695251852780451801noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7114311999430148986.post-41281840633346238622008-09-04T12:31:00.000-07:002008-09-04T12:39:38.510-07:00non-violence works(my wonderful auntie shared this with me and the pics in the beginning really make this kinda moving ...)<br /><br /><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/JoNH5Z3jqhk&hl=en&fs=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/JoNH5Z3jqhk&hl=en&fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br />random thoughts i had while watching this:<br /><br />1. i know why black people don't fuck with dogs the way white people do<br />2. the pics of barack don't move me ... they shoulda kept it historical and just had one pic of him ... the drawing one with the word 'progress' woulda worked best<br />3. we still got a long way to go<br />4. BUT i sho am glad it aint 1963 (kinda ... i do have fantasies of being a black panther)<br />5. white people are tryna lose these old photos<br />6. LOVE can prevail ... if we live thru the struggle ... and injustice ... we will get to the other side ... (not the side where everything is perfect but the side we at now ... where we can breathe a lil bit more)caSHmereLoveJohnsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02695251852780451801noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7114311999430148986.post-51352419804486591802008-09-02T06:06:00.000-07:002008-09-02T06:52:43.308-07:00'merica<a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SL1BXulCXVI/AAAAAAAAAFU/Dp-IXQ_1gqs/s1600-h/merica.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SL1BXulCXVI/AAAAAAAAAFU/Dp-IXQ_1gqs/s320/merica.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5241417417225297234" /></a><br />hurricane gustav ... made me have an epiphany ....<br /><br />my new theory is that america is no longer america ... at least not the america that many people BRAND and MARKET her to be (o.k. she never was but it's real obvious now) ... you know that "dream" of america which does include the 'american dream' version as well as this notion that we are a 'first world,' highly developed, super-CIVILIZed, leader of the 'free-market' world... when they took countries out of the 3rd world and put them in the first world, when they took africa, india, and latin america and colonized them the excuse was that europeans were more CIVILIZED ... cuz of, you know, real important things like they wore long skirts and ties and they ate with forks ...<br /><br /><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SL0_WnKxvzI/AAAAAAAAAE0/pejh4y9Uf3g/s1600-h/wave+crashing.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SL0_WnKxvzI/AAAAAAAAAE0/pejh4y9Uf3g/s320/wave+crashing.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5241415199032983346" /></a><br />but all that to say america is no longer america ... we are now a bootleg version of our own illusion ... let me explain why i'm downgrading us to business class, to third world, to the bottom of the international pecking order ...<br /><br />i first thought this cuz of gustav. i mean ... how civilized is it not to rebuild the levees in four years ... but then again the rest of new orleans has also yet to be rebuilt hmmm ... and 85% of the people aint back (not an exact percentage) ... and many refugees still live in trailers issued by the government that turned out to be toxic and cause cancer ... and what about FEMA in GENERAL -- ... a gov. body that is as corrupt as nigeria (NOT an insult to nigeria) ... and then i thought about how the folks would evacuate and gas stations would run out of gas (not very american) and ATMs would be out of money (not american at all) <br /><br /><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SL0_68xmEYI/AAAAAAAAAFE/hv8_4j-Yw5c/s1600-h/atm.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SL0_68xmEYI/AAAAAAAAAFE/hv8_4j-Yw5c/s320/atm.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5241415823308231042" /></a><br />and supermarkets would have no food or water (so unamerican) and the traffic out of NO would turn a 7 hour drive into 20 hours (kinda american) ...<br /><br /><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SL1AEB554EI/AAAAAAAAAFM/s0qf3b1Uchc/s1600-h/traffic.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SL1AEB554EI/AAAAAAAAAFM/s0qf3b1Uchc/s320/traffic.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5241415979304083522" /></a><br />then i thought .... has the 9/11 destruction been re-built ... no ... there are still craters in the earth and condemned buildings in the bowery ... there is still no 9/11 memorial ...<br /><br />which led me to think about where our money is at ... oh, iraq ... so if a future disaster or terrorist attack hit ... that shit wouldn't get rebuilt either ...<br /><br /><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SL1CdmLMXgI/AAAAAAAAAFk/jdRrPK0QcQw/s1600-h/gulf+coast.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SL1CdmLMXgI/AAAAAAAAAFk/jdRrPK0QcQw/s320/gulf+coast.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5241418617560260098" /></a><br />and this got me thinking about our infrastructure as a whole ... education (is that infrastructure? not sure but it's pretty fucking important) is at an all time low ... kids i taught in philly didn't know what or where the u.s. capital city was ... no bullshit ... and umm the dollar is now valued at less than the euro almost twice as less huh ... our current president is g.w. bush ... and it was americans who voted for him ... health insurance - what's left of it - SUCKS ... jobs that ALWAYS carried health care no longer even offer it ... if they do offer it it's like the cost of college ... and oh that's rising too and gov grants for college are also dwindling ... banks are closing and homes are foreclosing ... is the american dream moving into an apartment?<br /><br /><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SL1CVUC8MLI/AAAAAAAAAFc/s7MggSN4N8g/s1600-h/paradise.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SL1CVUC8MLI/AAAAAAAAAFc/s7MggSN4N8g/s320/paradise.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5241418475254853810" /></a><br />i would move to cuba but there's a hurricane there. i would move to canada but it's too cold. venezuela and brasil are the last two left on my list ... and ghana is definitely an option ... <br /><br />cuz as far as i'm concerned this country is now just called 'merica -- it's fourth-world and dropping fast ...(no, i don't believe we can rank worlds it's just cuz i know AMERICA takes their ranking quite seriously.) i told yall ... it's HARD for me to love america with all her pre-occupation with ranking, order, money, materialism ... she always forgets that a country is only as strong as its PEOPLE. and it's only the people that make it a nation.<br /><br /><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SL0_mYBVi-I/AAAAAAAAAE8/uA67kijxLas/s1600-h/water+bike.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SL0_mYBVi-I/AAAAAAAAAE8/uA67kijxLas/s320/water+bike.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5241415469844761570" /></a>caSHmereLoveJohnsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02695251852780451801noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7114311999430148986.post-72585369177599685302008-08-30T05:00:00.000-07:002008-08-30T05:00:00.356-07:002006 state of the world address(i wrote this on monday, october 30, 2006 at 9:35 p.m. but sadly much of it still applies. this is the negativity in the world that fuels me to blog. this is the destruction, death, and mayhem which needs a lot of LOVE rubbed all over it. and this is more of why we still can't wait.)<br /><br /><em><strong>chaos theory at the end of october 2006 </strong></em><br /><br />what is the goal <br />of israel's fresh new raids on gaza?<br />israel seems to get no<br />closer to eradicating<br />hamas<br />why is the issue of muslim women wearing<br />veils even up for debate?<br />is this not the first tenet of western liberal democracy:<br />freedom of choice<br />but nobody seems to hear<br />the implicit euro-centricism and euro-supremacy<br />underlying the "veil" debate<br />and the linking of the anti-veil argument<br />to a false notion of UNIVERSAL<br />culture&common sense<br />sense is not common<br />cuz then someone would really<br />put a stop to darfur<br />instead of throwing all these<br />concerts and forming U.N.<br />commissions<br />and it's easy to ignore all the unrest<br />still unfolding in somalia<br />and their hints of war with ethiopia<br />because we've BEEN ignoring them<br />since the black hawk went down<br />but what really trips me out is<br />how robin thicke has so much soul<br />and how we get on the train everyday <br />with mllions of random people<br />but we can't talk <br />cuz in this modern society<br />my life has nothing<br />to do<br />with yours<br />right<br />i wonder when i wander<br />thru target why little dogs get more<br />accessories than<br />homeless people<br />and more attention<br />than starving people<br />these little fucking dogs are becoming<br />the opiate of the masses<br />karl marx is rolling in his grave<br />and sartre is saying<br />i told you so<br />i'm not impressed with kerry's comments<br />either but they are<br />slightly more important<br />than who or how madonna<br />adopts children<br />and ahhhhhh where are the whispers<br />about shutting down the concentration camp<br />commonly referred to<br />as GITMO <br />or -- for those who failed to see that great<br />tom cruise/jack nicholson collabo --<br />guantanamo bay<br />no, i cannot handle the truth<br />the truth about <br />the depths of human depravity<br />overwhelm me sometimes, Lord<br />the man who cut a two year<br />old clitoris off - his child's -<br />with a scissor<br />the three school shootings in <br />one week<br />russian women for sale all over<br />my e-mail account<br />bullets flying STILL in jamaica<br />and in queens<br />much closer to home the good Lord agrees<br />that i should weep<br />for my little brothers and sisters<br />who go to school EVERY DAY<br />late and without a bookbag<br />and play playstation and cards<br />and tag and kill the teacher<br />who don't know their own value<br />i even get discouraged by my <br />black bourgeousie &<br />RBG afro chic<br />naturalistic contingent <br />all the "talented" tenth<br />wasting their time<br />college education<br />and wasting a historical legacy<br />of freedom<br />fighters<br />and their hot breath<br />in be-moaning the death of hip hop<br />and the proliferation of the word nigga<br />i can't read the news anymore<br />cuz i know it's death<br />and destruction <br />i can't listen to world leaders anymore<br />cuz they keep saying the same<br />old thing upholding the same old status <br />quo<br /><br />my heart is so heavy <br /><br />but i'ma do my little part <br />plug away at my slice of the pie<br />keep carving my niche of like-minded individuals<br />cuz i also know<br />the revolution begins in my heart <br />and dies with each spirit<br />that gives upcaSHmereLoveJohnsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02695251852780451801noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7114311999430148986.post-42202747727479195992008-08-29T08:29:00.000-07:002008-08-29T08:47:44.892-07:00more break your heart news ...<a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SLgWw0XVdDI/AAAAAAAAAEk/nSvwARBSqEc/s1600-h/palin.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SLgWw0XVdDI/AAAAAAAAAEk/nSvwARBSqEc/s200/palin.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5239963194391622706" /></a><br />sigh ... i think mcCain has officially lost it ... he watched the DNC convention and he forgot he was in america ... and then he picked his running mate. 44-year-old female gov. of alaska ... who is this lady? mcCain looks like an ass for picking a running mate with no experience and all the credentials that don't matter: opposite sex, opposite age, opposite skin tone ... could they have been anymore obvious and CONTRIVED? go hip hop republicans! your mcCain picked a winner! LOL how can i learn to love mcCain ... i am finding it hard to find any compassion for him so i'ma pray on that.<br /><br /><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SLgXle8lnjI/AAAAAAAAAEs/L2NHNDuw5BI/s1600-h/marine.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SLgXle8lnjI/AAAAAAAAAEs/L2NHNDuw5BI/s200/marine.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5239964099175358002" /></a> and who is this sad and sorry looking guy? this is the marine who just got aquitted of murdering four iraqis in falluja, iraq. he did that shit. and justice in america remains missing in action. maybe it's in iraq? nah, probly not. i remember reading about these murders in 2007 ... he did that shit. they acquitted him cuz there wasn't enuff 'evidence' or so the <a href="http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/americas/7587177.stm">bbc article </a>says. and there wasn't enough evidence cuz two of his fellow marines refused to testify ... i find it hard to feel love for these particular marines ... but actually it's easier to forgive them than john mcCain. these young men enter combat situations and lose their minds. i can dig it. what's mcCain's excuse .... ahh wait a minute ... maybe he thinks he's still in combat ... <br /><br />now i feel compassion for them. i almost forgive them. but my observations still hold. i still want justice. you can feel both at the same time.caSHmereLoveJohnsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02695251852780451801noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7114311999430148986.post-89789559477776220422008-08-28T09:14:00.001-07:002008-08-28T09:36:58.650-07:00standardly & 'loverly' barefoot: cassandra wilson's latest album** this review was written for <a href="http://www.soulbounce.com">soulbounce.com </a>but i aint sure it's posted there yet ...<br /><br />Standard is not typical of Cassandra Wilson. In fact, her only typical trait is that she is atypical. Yet her latest release, “Loverly,” is filled primarily with renditions of standard jazz classics. Because convention is not her strong point (it’s been twenty years since she did an album like this) it’s no wonder that Wilson puts her foot into every standard on the album and rechannels old wine into new skin. Cassandra who is often described as ‘willful’ and ‘barefoot’ stayed true to those adjectives when she decided to rent a house in her home state of Mississipi, turn it into a recording studio, and lay down the album in a five-day recording session. The result of her efforts is a fresh, barefoot, eclectic, intuitive, unorthodox, and masterful classic jazz album. <br /><br />Wilson’s vocal delivery is excellent as she tailors her voice and intonation to fit the essence and energy of each song. Cassandra eases into the first track, “Lover Come Back to Me,” in smooth, honey tones as she rides the swing of the beat and devolves into an almost-scat. The pianist, Jason Moran, tinkles so fast you feel like ivory teardrops are falling on top of each other and Nicholas Payton’s trumpet solo is even more searing than Cassandra’s voice. Cassandra and the trumpet play off of each other as she uses her tongue and mouth and teeth more as percussion instruments. <br /><br />When Wilson croons about “lots of chocolate to eat … warm hands, warm feet” on the song which is also the album’s namesake, “Wouldn’t It Be Loverly,” she manages to sound both Nat-King-Cole-ole- school and with the help of the electric guitar’s presence modern and revitalizing at the same time. The band never hesitates, never stutters and consistently delivers in every genre: swing, blues, afro-latin, and everything in between that comprises this album. <br /><br />The surprising and refreshing treat of the album is Cassandra and her band’s take on a classic that has been performed by Frank Sinatra and Tony Bennett, “Gone With the Wind.” The use of the hand-drums, the electric guitar, the opening counter-rhythm, and the rolling piano come together to give this very, old song a brand new empowering feel. Cassandra’s humming transmits as strong a melodic message as her words. The irony of African drums on ‘Gone with the wind’ is also not lost on the listener. <br /><br />Wilson introduces Mid-East influences to her Afro-Latin theme in her highly syncopated and jamming version of “Caravan.” Afro-Latin rhythms also permeate Cassandra’s rendition of “Til There Was You” giving this timeless song movement and heat which are counterbalanced by funky riffs from Marvin Sewell’s electric guitar. One of the few non-standard songs on the album, “Arere,” fully immerses itself in its Afro-Cuban tradition and provides a highly percussive, spiritual earthiness that grounds the album but maintains it’s jazz roots by way of the strong, forceful piano performance. Robert Wilson’s “Dust My Broom,” is wonderfully interpreted by Cassandra who channels all of her Jackson, Miss. roots to lay her blues on top of the original songwriter’s. “Spring Can Really Hang You Up the Most,” is an organic, futuristic vision of an old classic with it’s trembling acoustic guitar and Cassandra’s soft, raspy, billowy vocals pulling at your heartstrings. <br /><br />This album is barefoot, in part, because the technical recording aspect is not formal, exact, or perfect. In Wilson’s intense and focused delivery of “The Very Thought of You,” there are some sounds of reverb and she drifts in and out of the mic clearly conveying the feel of a live recording. On other tracks improvised shouts and chatter can be heard. This album will make you feel as if Cassandra Wilson ran her standard jazz barefoot through deep southern grass and rolled its toes in the African blood soaked dirt.<br /><br />i posted two of my favorite tracks for you to sample ...<br /><br /><center><p style="visibility:visible;"><embed src="http://assets.myflashfetish.com/swf/mp3/mff-stick.swf" quality="high" wmode="transparent" flashvars="myid=12267389&path=2008/08/28&mycolor=111111&mycolor2=99CCCC&mycolor3=FFFFFF&autoplay=false&rand=0&f=4&vol=100&pat=11&grad=false" width="219" height="35" name="myflashfetish" align="middle"type="application/x-shockwave-flash" pluginspage="http://www.macromedia.com/go/getflashplayer" border="0" > </embed><br><a href="http://www.myflashfetish.com/playlist/12267389" target="_blank"><img src="http://assets.myflashfetish.com/images/get-tracks.gif" title="Get Music Tracks!" style="border-style:none;" alt="Music"></a><a href="http://www.mixpod.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://assets.myflashfetish.com/images/make-own.gif" title="Create A Playlist!" style="border-style:none;" alt="Playlist"></a><br></p></center><img style="visibility:hidden;width:0px;height:0px;" border=0 width=0 height=0 src="http://counters.gigya.com/wildfire/IMP/CXNID=2000002.0NXC/bHQ9MTIxOTk*MTE3MTQ4NCZwdD*xMjE5OTQxMjEzMDc4JnA9MTgwMzEmZD*mbj1ibG9nZ2VyJmc9MQ==.gif" />caSHmereLoveJohnsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02695251852780451801noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7114311999430148986.post-65560166244318007742008-08-27T10:46:00.001-07:002008-08-27T11:06:43.560-07:00why we still can't waitexample A: an article that appeared in the ny times was titled <a href="http://www.nytimes.com/2008/08/25/us/politics/25race.html?hp">"Blacks Debate Civil Rights Risk in Obama’s Rise"</a>and it was all about whether the symbol of Obama fools people (white and black alike) into thinking racism was over. now ... isn't there a saying that goes something like ... you can only fool a fool? america is full of fools. <br /><br />example B: i wrote about this incident -- In March or April 2007, three noncommissioned United States Army officers, including a first sergeant, a platoon sergeant and a senior medic, killed four Iraqi prisoners with pistol shots to the head as the men stood handcuffed and blindfolded beside a Baghdad canal, two of the soldiers said in sworn statements. -- on a different blogsite when the american soldiers were just heading into court ... this is another good reason to vote for mcCain ... sike ... read about the outcome of the trial <a href="http://www.nytimes.com/2008/08/27/world/middleeast/27abuse.html?_r=1&ref=world&oref=slogin">here</a>.<br /><br /><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SLWXfsxs9SI/AAAAAAAAAEc/dVeXH3lH4SU/s1600-h/Martin_Luther_King_Jr_NYWTS_4.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SLWXfsxs9SI/AAAAAAAAAEc/dVeXH3lH4SU/s200/Martin_Luther_King_Jr_NYWTS_4.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5239260312366806306" /></a><br />MLK jr. wrote the book, "why we can't wait" ... i'm ready to get into some non-violent disobedience and some revolutionary LOVE acts ... we can't wait.caSHmereLoveJohnsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02695251852780451801noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7114311999430148986.post-19592038338308839272008-08-26T13:38:00.000-07:002008-08-26T15:40:08.617-07:00breaking news?1. the olympics are over? hmmm i missed it. i heard a mexican won america a medal but that he wasn't a legal citizen. that about sums up the olympics for me ... i did see some diving and that's always hot ... how they do that shit. i love gymnastics but i missed that too. <br /><br /><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SLRqLTkMW5I/AAAAAAAAAEE/9aPnek7CNyw/s1600-h/s-MICHELLEO-large.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SLRqLTkMW5I/AAAAAAAAAEE/9aPnek7CNyw/s400/s-MICHELLEO-large.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5238929009001913234" /></a><br />2. michelle obama made a speech? lol missed that too! i have retired from the remainder of this presidential race. i mean ... i'm still loving how america is all lost in translation now that there is a black candidate but other than that ... i'ma vote for barack and ... i don't expect much else to change in amerikkka. oh, unless WE the PEOPLE become better human beings. the dnc convention is a dog and pony show. watch them wag the dog. either way michelle obama is the shit if for no other reason than her fits is super fashion forward ... and i heard she gave a bomb ass speech yesterday. google it yaself.<br /><br />3. e-40 is the new savior of hip hop?! this is the worst news yet ... LOL ... i'm in my new car listening to the radio and shit and this song comes on ... the intro is all about how this song was going to give hip hop substance again and people think hip hop is dead and nobody aint rappin about nothing anymore ... except ... e-40. really? google that yourself too. the song really isn't worth listening to again.<br /><br />4. andre benjamin has no new album coming out. but i wish he did and that it was all rap.<br /><br />5. someone (a very good BROTHER LOL) put me on to this site: <a href="http://hiphoprepublican.com">http://hiphoprepublican.com</a> ... you already know where i'm going with this? WHO GIVES A FUCK IF YOU LISTEN TO HIP HOP AND YOU REPUBLICAN?? do you think that is like being a DOWN-ASS republican? or is it a synonym for COOL republican? does it cancel out the fact that you're a shit-for-brains republican? LOL i am jus playing ... but mcCain aint ... he will throw your hip hopper ass under the bus too. good luck with that and let me know how it works out!<br /><br />5. it rained for three days straight in atlanta.<br /><br />6. the sun came out! (then it rained again while the sun was out)<br /><br /><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SLSF1TLCANI/AAAAAAAAAEM/cAaeOOt63JY/s1600-h/dimple.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SLSF1TLCANI/AAAAAAAAAEM/cAaeOOt63JY/s400/dimple.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5238959417264832722" /></a><br />7. and i just realized michelle obama has the same kind of dimple on the side of her chin like me!caSHmereLoveJohnsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02695251852780451801noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7114311999430148986.post-74160188703153424282008-08-25T08:45:00.000-07:002008-08-26T13:36:40.855-07:00phase 3 -- operation save my life: the unknown<a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SLLdmjRJrgI/AAAAAAAAAD8/QTj3ACYe84s/s1600-h/blog+paint.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_ZibqwoD0PY4/SLLdmjRJrgI/AAAAAAAAAD8/QTj3ACYe84s/s400/blog+paint.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5238492970957254146" /></a><br />i didn't know what would await me in atlanta in june. i BELIEVED that i could get work before i moved out there. i BELIEVED i could find an apt in five days ... i BELIEVED that the rental car would end up paying for itself (or i would end up being able to pay for it) ...<br /><br />i could have made a better list of restuaurants and called them all ahead of time etc etc but i thought i was doing good by printing out the addresses ... i had asked "industry" people i knew what restaurants were hot and where i might find big tips ... i also did a blind search on the net ... i had 15-20 restaurants staked out ... i ended up visiting about 12 ...<br /><br />people were telling me that this was a personality industry and i prayed it was true cuz all i really had going for me was ... personality ... see, you never met me but if you ever did ... or if i ever get this video blog off the ground ... you'll know what i'm talking about. so anyways, even if i do have a warm smile and bright eyes is that enough to get me a job???<br /><br />yes.<br /><br />from my first interview to my last i got great feedback. folks took time to talk to me. many told me to call back for an interview. one told me to return for an interview (never mind they weren't there when i came back - it's part of life.) and several told me to call them when i returned to atlanta for good. <br /><br />once i stepped into the unknown i realized my dreams really were possible. <br /><br />if we keep looking at the unknown from a distance we will never KNOW.<br /><br />both my feet were plunged in and it was at the last interview where something CLICKED. i just felt right. i loved the look of the three-story, fancy pants, french-esque restaurant that was in the heart of midtown atlanta. the woman who interviewed me mentioned that someone was quitting in a few weeks and that my timing (GOD) was perfect. she said she could start me as a hostess and then i could possibly train as a waitress. she gave me her personal cell and i had a feeling the job was mine. i told her i would call her in two weeks when i was back in the A.<br /><br />as for housing ... i was blessed with many options. friends had invited me stay with them. but i was reluctant to impose on anyone. so, i looked at a few apartments in certain neighborhoods but i felt overwhelmed by how huge the atlanta metro area was. the biggest blessing is that my daughter's grandmother - BD's mom - owned an apartment complex that was down the street from my daughter's new school. the unknown part is that i didn't know what the apartments looked like or if i would like them. i kinda knew that God had my back ... he had set something aside for me ... and he did.<br /><br />the grace and mercy is that my daughter's grandmother was an angel who offered me flexiblity and love ... in a landlord.<br /><br />bi-level 2BR townhomes with eat-in kitchens ... some other tenant left a washer/dryer behind ... we can move that in your apartment she said ... i wanted light cuz i paint ... i found a sunny unit with brand new carpeting ... good condition ... the area is transitioning ... used to be way hood but now it's only hood depending on who you talk to ... aint all that hood to me ... i hear birds chirping ... and crickets humping ... and sometimes just wind moving in between leaves ... oh, and it's in my price range ... i was sold!!!!<br /><br />i flew back to nyc with contentment in my heart ... i had saved the money i needed, i had an apartment, and i was pretty sure i had a job ... i gave notice the next day!<br /><br />of course, some folks had to warn me that a lot of restaurants promise girls they can become servers but they never come thru ... they just keep you as a hostess and wear you out ... this is true. i had already heard this. but this wasn't going to be my story (and if it was i had a plan B) cuz that thing in me that i've had since i was little went off in my brain: i write my own story and when i work hard and try my best things change/move/open and the impossible becomes possible ... <br /><br />i also placed the job outcome all in God's hands. i didn't try to figure out with my intellect which job was better, sexier, etc. ... i let God do her thing ... and she did me right. i didn't worry or stress. that was my covenant. God knew he had my total trust and faith. <br /><br />the woman from that fancy-pants french restaurant called me before i even got to atlanta. she called the day i was driving down - that's how anxious she was to hire me. when i got her message two days later (i had just arrived in atlanta and i was exhausted after driving for 20 hours) i called her right away. she asked me to come in for a second interview with her GM and other managers. i was there - early. <br /><br />i was hired and started work the first week i had arrived in atlanta.<br /><br />i never imagined it would happen just like this. that everything would fall into place. i mean i had FAITH but to witness it unfold before your very eyes ... is encouraging, heartening, and doubly inspiring. <br /><br />love your dream. cuz God put it in you. and he will see you thru to the end of the rainbow.<br /><br />phase 4 coming soon ... the picture is of a painting i have been working on for 7-8 years ... it's only one small reason why i moved - so i can finish it!caSHmereLoveJohnsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02695251852780451801noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7114311999430148986.post-20666043542088009332008-08-23T09:32:00.000-07:002008-08-23T09:32:01.015-07:00counting the reasonswhy i love bam bam ... cuz of stories like the one below ... i don't know that nigra from hole in the wall but in general i like people who call others out in a teasing manner ... it means he is not afraid of human to human contact ... he is not afraid to go off script ... unless this was scripted but i doubt it. got this story from a political blog at nytimes.com:<br /><br />August 21, 2008, 8:08 pm <br /><a href="http://thecaucus.blogs.nytimes.com/2008/08/21/what-would-miss-manners-say/">What Would Miss Manners Say?</a><br />By Katharine Q. Seelye<br />CHESAPEAKE, Va. — Cell phone etiquette may have sunk to a new low.<br />A man attending a town hall meeting here with Senator Barack Obama was yakking on his phone while Mr. Obama was speaking Thursday. Mr. Obama noticed him and called him out on it, so to speak.<br />“Now, this gentleman is on the phone,” a slightly amazed Mr. Obama told the crowd of a couple of thousand people seated attentively before him in a school gym. He had been talking about the economy but stopped. Gesturing to the man, Mr. Obama told him: “Get off the phone.”<br /><br />The man said something inaudible, and Mr. Obama, who assumed the man was talking to his wife, replied: “Now you’ll really have something to tell her when you call her back.” Pause. “Oh, he says it wasn’t his wife,” Mr. Obama said, eliciting a big groan from the audience.<br />“That’s worse,” Mr. Obama said. “I hope your wife wasn’t watching on TV when you just said that.”<br />The candidate said he was just teasing and then carried on with his discussion.caSHmereLoveJohnsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02695251852780451801noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7114311999430148986.post-20062713320349786122008-08-22T09:39:00.000-07:002008-08-22T10:14:11.541-07:00baby bag mama<a href="http://blackcelebritykids.files.wordpress.com/2008/07/erykah-and-jay-thumb.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 200px;" src="http://blackcelebritykids.files.wordpress.com/2008/07/erykah-and-jay-thumb.jpg" border="0" alt="" /></a><br />i was fascinated when i heard erykah badu might be pregnant for the third time by a different man. not for the usual reasons ... i don't judge that woman and i don't care how many kids she has ... i fuks with erykah (i guess mostly on a musical level) and i am equally fascinated by lauryn hill and her five kids ... but uh i really wanted to know more bout erykah cuz i wanted to know who her new BD (baby daddy) was and if he was cute ... so when i clicked on <a href="http://blackcelebkids.com/2008/07/14/rumorerykah-badu-is-pregnant-with-insults/">this site </a>... i wasn't ready to discover his real identity OR read what e. badu (as analogue girl) had to say to okayplayer.com ... she is livid bout all the gossip and judgement and speculation ... i thought i would let her voice be heard some mo ... in the pic is the the new BD -- jay electronica?? never heard of 'im ... but here's a <a href="http://www.zshare.net/audio/15025216c59fa967/">link to a song he did </a>featuring guess who ... but the real irony is ... do i hear a sample on that track from a song a different rapper who used to date erykah badu used on a previous album?! if i'm wrong leave a comment but that sounds a lot like ... <br /><br />and then below is also what she had to say on the matter ... none of this could be true -- she could be very UNpregnant, this man in the pic could be her cuzzin, and she may not have really wrote this so don't be an ass and assume everything you read is true. and lastly in my humble opinion her new dude is not cute to me. dre is still reigning BD champ! but a TRUE word of advice to the haters: don't fuck wit nobody MAMA ..............<br /><br /><strong>badu? words:</strong><br />peace,<br />HOW DARE YOU DISRESPECT THE QUEENDOM<br /><br />…AND MY CHILDREN AND MY INTELLIGENCE.<br /><br />ive never been so disgusted in all of my life .<br />there is no other place i used to enjoy more .<br />i post no where else .<br />you guys have taken an all time low , tho.<br /><br />I’LL STATE MY PEACE<br /><br />i am a great mother and care giver to my 2 children and to this world .<br />my children are 2 of the kindest and happiest people i have met.<br />I home schooled them and taught them the ways of good to the best of my ability.<br />i am their doctor and their nurse .<br />and even sometimes their mother and their father.<br /><br />i am an excellent mother and resent all of the negative comments and insults on my character.<br />I PUT MUCH TIME AND THOUGHT INTO HAVING AND RAISING MY CHILDREN.<br />IVE HAD THE HONORS OF HAVING 2 HOME BIRTHS AND 2 WONDERFUL PARTNERS BY MY SIDE.<br /><br />every relationship i have been in was because i loved the person DEARLY and was dedicated to us “exclusively” FOR A NUMBER OF YEARS.<br /><br />the fathers of my children are my brothers and friends .<br />we have a great deal of respect for one another and always will.<br />WE LOVE OUR CHILDREN TO NO END.<br />we took our own “vows” and CONTINUE TO UPHOLD THEM.<br />AND THAT IS WHAT THAT IS .<br /><br />question?<br />WHAT IS MARRIAGE ?<br />WHO IS THE JUDGE?<br />WE ONLY UNDERSTAND THE EXAMPLES WE ARE GIVEN ( well sort of)<br /><br />WOULD IT “LOOK BETTER ” TO MARRY AND DIVIORCE AND MARRY AGAIN ?<br />WOULD THAT BE MORALLY CORRECT ?<br />WHATS THE DIFFERENCE ? the government’s involvement i guess.<br />IDEALLY , IT WOULD BE EXCELLENT TO FIND THE MAN OR WOMAN WHO FULFILLS YOUR SPIRIT AND STAY FOR EVER AND EVER ( thru sickness and health till death do us part ) AND HAVE HEALTHY STRONG CHILDREN AS A RESULT OF A HEALTHY AND STRONG UNION.<br />(this CAN happen … we need much training , however.)<br /><br /><br />OR<br /><br />IS IT REALLY “GOOD” TO STAY IN A RELATIONSHIP WHERE BOTH PARTIES ARE UNFULFILLED , LONGING FOR RELIEF , BRINGING one another down as a result of improper training , creating BAD ENERGY AND EXPERIENCES FOR THE CHILD TO REPEAT ?<br />(not to mention breeding deceit and anger and resentment )<br />SEEMS TO CREATE FEARFUL CHILDREN WHO TURN INTO FEARFUL ADULTS .<br /><br />HOW MANY OF YOU GREW UP IN 2 PARENT HOMES THAT WERE MISERABLE AS F$%K ?<br />OR 2 PARENT HOMES THAT WERE NOT PERFECT BUT WORKED?<br />HOW MANY GREW UP IN ONE PARENT HOMES WHERE THE MOTHER WORKED HARD TO MAKE SURE YOU WERE CARED FOR BUT SHE WASNT QUITE HAPPY?<br />HOW ABOUT A HOME WHERE THE FATHER WAS THE MAIN CARE GIVER AND DID THE BEST HE COULD -LACKING NURTURE?<br />HOW MANY OF YOU HAVE A SIBLING THAT HAS A DIFFERENT FATHER OR MOTHER?<br />DOES HE OR SHE MEAN LESS TO YOU?<br />HOW MANY OF YOU HAVE MORE THAN 1 MOTHER OR FATHER OF YOUR OWN CHILDren ?<br />HOW MANY OF YOU HAD /OR / ARE PARENTS RESPONSIBLE ENOUGH TO MAKE GOOD DECISIONS FOR YOURSELF AND YOUR CHILDREN ,THAT DONT QUITE FIT ANY OF THESE DESCRIPTIONS?<br />HOW MANY OF YOU STAY IN UNHEALTHY RELATIONSHIPS FOR FEAR OF GOING TO HELL?<br />HOW MANY [women] OUT THERE … THAT HAVE KIDS TO GET A PAYDAY?<br />HOW MANY PEOPLE GETTING THEY ASS KICKED AND ARE FORCED TO SUBMIT CAUSE YO MAMA GOT HER A%S KICKED?<br />THEN WHAT is CORRECT?<br /><br />how about this:<br /><br />I PRAY WITH MY CHILDREN<br />I FEED THEM GOOD FOOD<br />THEY RESPECT PEOPLES DIFFERENCES<br />THEY TRAVEL THE WORLD WITH ME<br />THE KNOW WHO THEY ARE<br />THEY ADORE THEIR FATHERS AND ARE LOVED BY 2 PARENTS OR MORE -<br />OR TWO OR MORE SETS OF LOVING GRANDPARENTS<br />THEY CRY<br />THEY GET HURT<br />THEY GET SICK<br />THEY HEAL<br /><br />THEY ARE real<br /><br />THEY ARE NOT AN IDEA or a TOPIC<br />AND NEITHER AM I .<br />I AM ALIVE .<br />I AM BEAUTIFUL WOMAN.<br />I AM A GOOD WOMAM.<br />I AM GROWING<br />I AM COMPLETE WITH OR WITHOUT A PARTNER AND WILL ALWAYS BE<br />AND I HAVE DREAMS OF A FAMILY STRUCTURE<br />ALL OF MY DREAMS DO NOT COME TRUE<br />AND DESPITE ALL OF THE PAIN IN MY LIFE …<br />IN MY MOTHERS LIFE …<br />IN MY GRANDMOTHERS LIFE<br />WE HAVE ALWAYS ENDURED<br />AND THERE IS SO MUCH JOY TO BE EXPERIENCED.<br />I NEVER HAD A FATHER AND I DONT KNOW WHAT THAT FEELS LIKE -<br />BUT MY CHILDREN DO , AND THEY LOVE THEIR ‘PARENTS’ .<br /><br />WE ARE THEIR CHAMPIONS .<br /><br />live how you want . follow which ever pattern YOU like .<br />MY CHILDREN WILL BE LEADERS<br />and they will not ever be slaves to this society’s failing idea of morality.<br />THEY OWN THEIR MINDS AND THEIR DREAMS.<br /><br />BIRTH CONTROL lol … could have 10 babies instead of 2 .<br /><br />I LOVE CHILDREN AND I WILL HAVE AS MANY AS GOD WILL GIVE ME .<br /><br />I AM VERY HEALTHY AND RESPONSIBLE AND SO ARE ALL OF MY PARTNERS<br /><br />I CHOSE THEM WISELY AND SOBERLY .<br /><br />ALL GOOD BROTHERS .<br /><br />your opinions lack experience and are not only careless but also very uninformed and immature.<br /><br />nothing is sacred here . and i see why.<br /><br />if i loose you as a fan because i want to continue to have children then<br />FUCK OFF… WHO NEEDS YOU ….CERTAINLY NOT ME … KICK ROCKS … CALL TYRONE … PACK LIGHT …. BITE ME<br /><br />i have defended myself here ON THIS SITE and hurled a few insults .. but only in response to your insults of<br />my music , my clothes , my lyrics , my hair , my being a woman , my spirit, my choices of partners….<br />these have all been on trial here . and i continued to support the energy of this place .<br /><br />this is to all the okay players / REAL HUMAN BEINGS hiding behind screen names in order to insult one another and who ever else you will.<br /><br />geeeez…<br />i had to say something<br />i am so sad for parents who try , today guys<br />enough is enuf.<br /><br />dont judge to quickly , OKAY PLAYER?<br /><br />i know you are having fun , but what if it were you and your children?<br />my son is 10 .<br />my daughter, 4 .<br /><br />peace<br /><br />ANALOGUE GIRL<br /><br />and if this post is not clear<br />kiss my placenta.caSHmereLoveJohnsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02695251852780451801noreply@blogger.com1